The Point
I love Citrus green Tea and I HATE BACK PAIN and I am looking at a cat. His name is Bud and I always call him Oscar because He is a black cat and he looks like the other cat Oscar. I think love affects a lot of things. Love makes you recognize things. Paying attention is wonderful. When I was living with one of my tias, she had three black cats. I learned over time, When I had the ability to pay attention to something, that they were so insanely different. Madeline had this spot on her forehead were the fur of her ear thinned. That's the only example I can give. I forgot all the rest. I am reminiscing a lot, on Life and how I was and how things were so cool, and so not cool. I'm not necessarily stuck, I function well and I have no regrets about what I've done to get to this point, despite knowing what I could've done better. It does not matter. I think about how to find happiness a lot, and fortunately for me, I don't think it's in a mental spiral of anguished nostalgia. I still wish I could experience things the same, though. Even if my dad still thought indie games were the devil. At least I would be able to do it all again and live all again But I don't want to. I'm present and here in my moment and in my moment I'm thinking about another moment while simultaneously knowing this is the moment I'm experiencing. Self reflection, honesty and understanding are virtues and I strive to keep those. Yes I am A Pretentious Asshole as you call them. No I'm not. I don't know Why I said that.